There are two periods of the year that I fear more than anything else, are the summer and Christmas time.
are the two times of year when my mother is more aggressive, and you can not do anything to avoid triggering a crisis of rage or viruses into a manic phase.
Of course she stopped taking the mood stabilizer for quite a while, because he says he's fine, and the battery has stopped ... almost immediately because of side effects. Some time ago I retrieved the name of a drug that gave few side effects, but I never had the guts to talk to my mother, and now I do not remember even their names. The truth is that you probably do not have the strength to deal with the matter seriously, or in periods of relative calm, and certainly not during high, so I never suggested to my mother not to take antidepressants when the manic phase is about to begin because worsen the situation. His reaction terrifies me.
I must say, however, she is leaving me quite alone, at least until now, a couple of days ago he had a couple of turns heavy and fast, to go back now, sembra, alla normalità (se di normalità posso parlare). Forse perchè si è resa conto di quanto stessi studiando, finalmente, e del fatto che dopo tanto tempo sono riuscita nuovamente ad ottenere dei risultati all'università, è stata abbastanza brava. E io sono stata abbastanza brava a sfruttare questo periodo di tregua, perchè di solito la mia rigenerazione è molto lenta ed impegnativa, e non mi lascia spazio allo studio, per esempio, o per coltivare altri interessi. Questa volta ho cercato di non dormire sugli allori e mi sono autopremiata.
Mi sono resa conto però di avere degli sbalzi d'umore preoccupanti, che tengo per lo più sotto controllo, dentro di me. Questo mi allarma parecchio perchè I would not be on your way to becoming bipolar myself. It 's a thing that terrifies me, frankly. I read that among children of bipolar mood disorder, the incidence of this is higher than the general population and I would not want to be part of that percentage. But I can not help it. It 's like a cancer. You can not smoke for a lifetime, stay away from car exhaust gas and petrochemicals, and then gathered in forty years with lung cancer, why? Genetics. Why? Bad luck. The only way to fight a disease is to cure it. So accept my bipolar, if bipolarity will become. And take this medication.
